Related to losing the vision, yet distinct in a way, sometimes we know what God has said and we determine to do it, but we fail to count the cost. (Luke 14:28-30)
If we do not count the cost, we can find ourselves unprepared to pay the cost. This can make the cost seem too steep, although in our hearts we know that no cost is too much for our children’s welfare.
Still, we pause.
We think of quitting.
We fall back to some degree.
By cost, I do not mean only monetary cost.
Although with homeschooling there is a little cost, it is also possible to homeschool without spending very much money at all.
No, the cost I mean is often in the realm of social connections. When we begin home schooling, often we lose old friends, or so it seems. What truly may be happening is that we finally discover who our real friends are. We discover, also, how much loyalty our family members feel towards us. Sometimes it is appallingly little.
It is a lot to pay.
We feel like courting the approval of man.
Sometimes, the cost can be in the realm of lost second income, too. We find ourselves in the position of having to sew our own clothes, clean our own house, or cook our own food. The fact that we are, at last, able to do so, because we at last have the time for it, does not seem to soften the reality, sometimes.
Or the cost could come in units of time, itself. Without the usual eight-to-five pushing us ever onward, we may discover sleep. This can also feel like lost time, lost time for ME, but time we willingly gave, perhaps, to an employer, when it was for money.
Therefore, we may just keep insulting our family with the same old expensive fast food, in favor of staying in that warm bed.
Is this you?
Do you wonder how I know?
Are you beginning to guess at the cures?