Home, Sweet Home

I laugh, still, at Bill Cosby’s famous one liner:

I started out as a child…

He follows that with dead air, which becomes increasingly funny as he waits for his audience to “get it”. Hilarious!

However, didn’t we all originate most humbly, as completely needy persons?

Yes.

And we all remember those early days, remember something almost mystical about our lives from our teensy perspective. I remember the white satin, quilted surroundings in the bassinette and my daddy’s face peeking over the top of it to grin at me.

I remember lots of it, but one thing I loved was the layout of our house, skinny and tall, two stories high but with only two bedrooms. I loved the carpeted staircase leading from the front door to the upstairs, so much, however, the back stairs, outdoors for some reason, were beyond my abilities. With open risers, treads with no “treads”, and a rail too high for a little one, they proved my downfall.

Since when I fell, I was carrying feed to my new baby ducks, I experienced the unique: duck feed in the eyes.

Although that was traumatic to me, what I remember most is my mom’s trauma and devastation. Her little first-born had fallen big and could have suffered all sorts of injuries. Likely, she writhed in guilt—I would have. And she expressed every drop of it in her tender ministrations to my little gritty eyes. I’m sure she devoted an entire bottle of Murine to the task at hand. Since I was only two, of course I fought the idea of having anything more deliberately placed into my eyes, as I lay on the couch with my head tipped back, crying, doing some writhing of my own, with eyes SHUT.

She won, though, as  mother-love always does.

My bruises and scrapes healed quickly and my eyes have worked just great, for many a year.

My mom left this world, long ago.

The old two-story house could easily have become a drug-drop by now.

The quiet street where I played with another little girl, on her front steps, has probably been resurfaced so many times that it’s taller than the sidewalks.

Surely the duck pen is long-gone.

And the couch is dead.

The incredible gray paper with giant coral-colored roses on the living room walls has mercifully been replaced, I can imagine. No doubt, someone has painted over the beautifully varnished woodwork. The ceiling stain, telling of the time my brother and I got carried away, playing with toy dishes in the bathroom sink has, no doubt, been covered.

Furniture has gone down and back up those front stairs too many times. The back stairs, outdoors, have probably been re-worked many times.

And in my memory, the whole thing has never changed.

…But it’s the laughter we will remember, whenever we remember the way we were…  –Alan and Marilyn Bergman

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7 thoughts on “Home, Sweet Home

  1. faerylandmom says:

    This is beautiful, and made me tear up this morning. Thank you for sharing this special memory. I feel like I got a glimpse of your heart, and where you come from. Lovely. Just lovely.

  2. countrygirllifeonthefarm says:

    I love the story and it made me think of the first home I remember!! We lived in four before I moved out. The second and most memorable was huge and of course there were seven of us kids. All of the boys had a room and me and my sister shared a room. Lovely memories were made there and it was torn down about 10 years ago and I had always wanted to go back and spend some time there while it still stood but never made it. Thanks for bringing back my memories!!
    Rita

    • katharinetrauger says:

      Thank YOU, Rita, for this sweet tale!
      When we think about it very much, the memories all come back in a rush and no blog post is long enough, is it!
      I actually viewed my old house on googlemaps, and it is still standing! I could not believe it. They covered the brick with siding and the two houses on either side are gone, so it looks lots different, but it’s still there.
      And the houses across the street still have concrete steps up to their front sidewalks! Amazing! I remember using freshly-cut grass clipping to make doll beds on those steps with my little playmate. 🙂
      Memories!

  3. lifeconfusions says:

    This was so beautifully written. Every word contained a meaning in itself. Specially how you ended this post. So true. In the end its the memories which are left for us to ponder upon. Hats off to you Katherine !

    • katharinetrauger says:

      Thanks for these kind words, Zee, and WELCOME to Home’s Cool! I am glad you could find meanings in this post and that it pleased you. 🙂
      Thanks, also, for following, and I hope you visit often. 🙂

      • lifeconfusions says:

        Thank you, It was my pleasure. I had been to your blog quiet a while ago and you to mine but I was on hiatus so I got disconnected with everything. But now hopefully I’m back for good.
        Nice talking to you =)

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